

Reflection on your composition/performance
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Discuss the following elements in relation to your composition and performance
Which two elements did you use?
In my piece
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I have used improvisation in terms of spoken words and melody
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I used an unusual time signature 7/8, 8/8, irregular and molto rubato (free rhythm)
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I changed the time signature to 4/4 in the chorus
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I used my voice in an unusual way i.e spoken, head voice, chorus
Concept of your composition
I wanted to create a piece with elements of musical theatre in it. It was story based, parts of it were spoken resembling that of a monologue. The tone of the piece was creepy, dark and ominous. In general it was a mild horror story. To convey this theme I tried to compose the piece in minor key and diminished fifth sound.
Structure of the piece
This piece did not have a regular song structure. It’s a fantasy and is based on a theme and variation. With a hint of recurring chorus theme. It started of with a monologue followed by intro, verse , chorus , bridge , spoken and ending with chorus .
Lyrics of the piece will be at the bottom of the page (Appendix 1).
Rhythmic elements including tempo, time signature, rhythm pattern and any other rhythmic feature
This piece has free rhythm. The initial tempo is slow and it gets faster in the chorus. And in certain parts of the piece it’s moderate.
It has a strong rhythmic feature and each phrase starts up beat.
The time signatures have been mentioned prior.
Pitch, including tonality, scales and modes used, harmonic progression, voicing and any other harmonic features
Minor key, F minor natural, occasionally in Ab major, one modulation to Cm and back in Fm.
No scale in spoken words (un pitched)
Timbre and specific aspects of using your voice / particular instrument
Spoken, hushed, scared voice, falsetto (head voice), whispering, muted.
Dynamics, texture
Sudden changes (subito p, subito f), crescendo in choruses
It started quite soft, there is frustration in the voice in the chorus.
Specific aspect voice.
Describe and reflect on the creation and rehearsal process
As a kid I enjoyed certain types of horror shows. I also liked dolls and doll houses. It’s a pretty common concept in horror films for children to befriend possessed dolls. So my idea was loosely based on that and metaphorically related to some personal experiences as my mother did not want me to be friends with a particular person who was actually good for me. Because of my mother that friendship had fallen apart. Even though I apologised and reconnected with her years later. I also met her this summer when I went back home. Even though we don’t have any hard feelings towards each other and only have love for one another. Time was lost and things can’t entirely be the same again.
Also the vibe of the song was inspired by the song ‘Glitter Gutter’ by Switchblade Symphony. There are references to makeup like ‘smudged eyeshadow’ which also reflects my personality as I am a self taught makeup artist and also how in real life I had a fight with my mother and I had cried regarding picking up this friend from her house to go to a school event together. My eyeliner was ruined and I had to re do it.
So obviously this piece was written and rhymed by me. As I have done performing arts in the past, I felt comfortable adding in some monologue aspects to it.
Evaluation of your performance
As a performer I feel like I am confident, initially I was a bit upset for not being able to practice it enough to my usual standard. But I later used that to my advantage as this piece required improvisation. So instead of having the melody entirely memorised ; I improvised in certain places and also attempted to elongate certain notes and try riffs and runs that was feeling right in the moment of the performance. In order to improve the performance, I would have critically analysed the piece. I would put more effort into the acting, adding levels and layers to it with my voice and expressions. I would try to be even more engaging. And not make it monotone.
Over all I am quite content with my performance, I feel like I delivered it with enough clarity and my message did come across. I did enjoy the whole experience of performing and also seeing my peers perform.
Appendix 1
Let me tell you a story today
As a little girl
I had a doll
Her name was Maria
She wore a white lace dress and had bright cherry red lips
At night , she used to come alive and kept me company
She’d multiply in size and become a human being
Slightly distorted though
She’d tell me stories
Love me
And protect me against this big bad world world
One day when Maria was brushing my hair , my mom looked in the mirror . And nothing was the same after that .
She found out
Why did she have to find out ?
Can you kill what’s already dead
Hanging from a broken thread
Blood is dripping down her hair
She is nowhere but everywhere
She who can’t to be named is coming
Don’t pick up the telephone it’s buzzing
Here comes the daughter of darkness
I’m sure you’ve heard she’s heartless
Why couldn’t mamma see Maria
She kept on saying she has no idea
If we showed a little bit of compassion
Would’ve never turned into aggression
The broken doll had a heart of gold
But her story remained untold
The smudged eyeshadow dripped and dried
Whilst the broken doll sat and cried
Mamma said we were cursed
Things took a turn for the worst
I kept screaming she ain’t bloody Mary
Mamma said it’s time to dig and Bury
There are some things in life you don’t mess around with
Or you perish till every last bit
There are some things in life we can’t resist
But as they say what resists persists
To have a friend like you is supernatural
You are my special little angel
Your body will be unearthed
Soon I knew would be your rebirth
The broken doll had a heart of gold
But her story remained untold
The smudged eyeshadow dripped and dried
Whilst the broken doll sat and cried
Her soul is lost , astray
On the floor lies her silhouette
The desires that died that day
Now bleeds regret
She sits in that empty room
Watching the devil scheme
She’s anticipating her doom
But no one hears her scream
Banned from heaven
Abandoned on earth
But I guess darkness is an obsession
I’ve had since birth
The broken doll had a heart of gold
But her story remained untold
The smudged eyeshadow dripped and dried
Whilst the broken doll sat and cried